What I Wouldn't Give….

Have you ever said those words or at least thought them to yourself? 
I sure have! What I wouldn't give to….(fill in the blank)…TO HAVE A BIGGER HOUSE, TO BE ABLE TO TRAVEL, TO LOSE THE WEIGHT I WANT TO LOSE, TO HAVE A THRIVING SHOP, FOR MY CHILDREN TO ALL BE SUCCESSFUL AND HEALTHY AND HAPPY, TO OWN A CONVERTIBLE….(OK…that one is a stretch!) If you know me then you know I don't like messy hair! I love the thought of a convertible but I could never truly own one.
 And I am most certain that Jim is thrilled to hear this! 

But you do get my drift don't you?

 Life sure throws us some curve balls and I for one am having a difficult time wrapping my arms around this one…this time!

Each day I wake up and find that one of my children, or my grandchild, or my niece or nephew or sister or brother or me or Jim has been thrown that curve ball.

 They seem to be coming faster and faster these days but thankfully, and so far….most of them are simply a nuisance…something to get in the way of "our dreams" and "our plans". This is when I must trust…this is when I cry out loud to the Lord…and sometimes scream out loud…Lord, not my will but yours….Lord, help me to truly mean that prayer…Lord, show us the way!

 I told Holly just last night that there is no better place to be than in the palm of His hand…I pray that I will continue to mean that and to be able to live it out with His strength.
Thank you, Lord, for this time in our lives! Thank You that my children are all healthy and happy for the most part and that they love You! Thank You that we know You have our lives completely planned out! Help me to trust in that and not fall victim to my own insecurities! 

Next time maybe I will just post the recipe for the new spaghetti dish we made in Highlands for the fourth! But tonight…I would covet your prayers for Layton and Britney coming home from Italy for Layton's surgery and for Holly and Brad as they seek the Lord's will for their lives. I bet God is saying…pray for Carolyn's heart as she deals with all of this! So…I ask your prayers for that!
I love you all for just reading this and for listening to a mom rant for a while…trust me, I've spared you from a lot of it! I truly am thankful for every aspect of my life…but there are times that we don't understand and times we just need to get it off our chest! Tonight was one of those times.