Am I His one and only?

Lyrics to One And Only :

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day loose myself in time
Just thinking of your face God only knows
Why it's taking me so long to let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never tried to forgive your past
And simply be mine

I dare you to let me be.....your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I'm the one who can
Walk them miles until the air starts

You hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time
At the mention of my name, will I ever love
How it feels to hold you close
And have you tell me which ever road I chose you'll go

I dare you to let me be your one... your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I'm the one who can
Walk them miles until the air starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

Nobody's perfect, it ain't easy, trust me I've given up your heart
Nobody's perfect, it ain't easy, trust me I've given up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your one....your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me the chance
To prove I'm the one who can
Walk them miles until the air starts..

Come on and give me the chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk them miles......

several weeks ago I saw Haley sing an Adele song on American Idol and I've been hooked ever since! It was truly amazing and my sweet husband has downloaded all of Adele's songs etc for me....and I've memorized every word and spent many, many hours listening and enjoying them! then all of a sudden...tonight...because I am "alone" in my feelings...my doubts about decisions we've let our child make...feeling lonely and depressed ...even angry that Miller didn't get tapped into the National Honors Society today after we filled out all of the paper work since he was "nominated" ...I felt "justisfied"....I poured my heart out to God as I lay on the bathroom floor...weeping...( a bit dramatic, I realize that !!! ) but I'm just being honest here!! Listening to this song just fueled my fire....until all of a sudden it hit me that God could be singing this to ME!!!! I've been on HIs mind....He simply wants me to be HIS!!! He wants ME to be HIS one and only!!!! He wants to hold ME in HIS arms!!! He has walked those miles that Adele is singing about!!! He knows I'm scared...He knows every feeling I've ever felt...in fact..He felt it long before I ever existed! He desires that I hang on His every word because it is the truth...the biblical truth that will set me free from all of these earthy feelings that I am dealing with tonight! He's certainly not "daring" me as Adele sings in her song but he's pleading...he's telling me that He is the only way to a life filled with eternal happiness...Why am I even seeking earthly or temporal happiness? Why am I so stupid is what I want to ask myself!! He has certainly walked the miles for me and He certainly knows that it's not easy for me to give up my heart!!! And He is so very worthy! If only I would let go and trust Him and  rest in the fact that HE KNOWS!!!! He knows my weaknesses! He knows that I'm extremely prideful! He knows I only wanted this for Miller because...well, truthfully, I wanted it so badly growing up that I have somehow conveyed that to my children...and sweet Miller really wanted it...for me...and for him...and I think that makes me even more sad! I guess it should make me glad...and proud...not in a haughty way mind you! But proud of my youngest child that so eagerly seeks to please...and yet I so quickly condemn! Oh my!!! I'm basically lecturing myself here, you know! He has done nothing wrong...and everything right and yet...it's never good enough for me...and if that's what I'm conveying to him....then boy...do I need a wake up call!!! Hopefully, this is it! 


Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean NOT on your own understanding! In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths!


vs. 7-8 Be not wise in your own eyes: fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones!


oh my! I've never, ever concentrated on the verses after Proverbs 3:5-6.... God really blessed me tonight by showing me verses 7 and 8! I am bad to be wise in my own eyes and I sure do need healing and refreshment! 
Thank you, Lord...for all that you are teaching me...I pray that I will be receptive...