Hope Floats and so does a Life Preserver!!!

"Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad...but it's the middle that counts the most! And you need to remember that when you're at the beginning...just give hope a chance to float up and it will!" Quote from Hope Floats and Sandra Bullock....could be my life statement!!!
I'm just interested in the middle right now! I'm not doing so well with it and that's a little scary to me! Things are being thrown at me left and right and I feel like I'm playing dodge ball in a way!
I could list ten million promises that I turn to when things aren't going the way "I" planned...."all things work together for good", "His ways are not our ways"...and so on! Now don't mis-understand me...these are all FABULOUS and TRUE!!! but like I said, they are things that I "turn" to! I want them to be things that I CLING to and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I was a drowning victim at sea....these promises from God's word would be my life preserver! I NEED life preserving promises right now...every day....all day....and so on, and so on! It's not going to ever go away...the need that we have for something and Someone to put our ultimate trust in! So why don't I just go for it!! When things are thrown at me my immediate thought should be, "Lord...this is ordained by you....You will see me through it"....NOT....running to my bathroom, locking the door and sobbing into my bathmat for crying out loud!!!
Well....moving forward...I'm hoping you are atleast concerned as to why I would EVER run to my bathroom, lock the door and cry into my bathmat! ( not that it happens THAT often!!) but...this time it did and it was real and it was scary! Don't know how much you know about my sweet daughter and her wonderful husband and their "adventures" with the Chick Fil A Interim Manager training program! I can honestly say I don't want to know much more and I already know enough to probably train them along with alot of their higher ups! but moving right along...Holly and Brad were abruptly uprooted from what they thought was about to be their home....their first Chick Fil A of their own but God obviously had other plans that I will definitely ask Him about when I arrive in heaven...they were given a month off...they've been living with us....and they were supposed to find out in MID June where they would be going on July 1st! How many of you believe like I do that if a month has 30 days then on day 15...IT IS MID JUNE!!!!! Obviously....Chick Fil A has a different calendar than the rest of the world because they were just told YESTERDAY!!! the 20th!!!!!!!! Does that day seem extra special to anybody else but me? It was Holly and Brad's 2nd Anniversary for crying out loud!!! When Brad announced it to us...and us includes Holly for the first time...I kept telling him not to do it...don't ruin your anniversary dinner...being that they were dressed and leaving mind you!!!! Of course, the moment he began...I held up my hand and said I didn't want to know yet....I guess I just wanted to keep guessing? In reality...I was about to start fasting for God to intervene on their behalf! (Or was it mine?!?) Long story short...waterfalls of tears began to fall and I couldn't stop them...I didn't even want to! It was as if the floodgates had been opened and all these weeks of anticipation and fretting over things I can't go into because I'm seriously thinking they are part of the Secret Service...or the CIA or something!!! The tears flowed and luckily the words that flowed and the anger that flowed could not be heard by anyone other than me, the bathmat and the Lord....the King of Kings....the Great I AM!! My Redeemer! Jehovah....the Messiah!!! my Saviour!!! my Shepherd!!!
So now....I'm asking Him to throw me the Life Preserver! I know it's around me...tightly fitted from that day at Camp Hargis when I was in Jr. High...but somehow...I'm not using it correctly at this very moment and I truly want too!! I need too for my sake and the sake of my family!!! ( Mainly Jim!!) I'm asking Him for true peace when things don't go the way I had hoped for or planned for! I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He has Holly and Brad's very best interest in mind...and ours as well. I'm just being honest when I say that I am heart broken and sad and even mad that they are leaving next week for a place called Kenner, Louisianna! I can't even spell it! It's right outside of New Orleans and actually when Brad announced it was 5 1/2 hours away is when the tears really began to fall! i can't help it that I've loved every single solitary minute of knowing that they were just 45 minutes away and that Holly worked for me 2-3 days a week and she was there for all of Miller's important events in his life! His games, his prom, etc....They were at church sitting by us every Sunday again! Something that a parent truly longs for! Now they won't be here for Miller's Senior year of High School...and that...was truly my first thought when I heard the news of Kenner, Louisianna.
I'm claiming the last few verses that God had been putting on my heart to get me through this...I know THEY will be fine! They always are and I'm excited for the people in Kenner to get the priviledge of knowing my special children! I will share them for a while...I will share them as long as God sees fit...even if I shed a few tears along the way....I truly don't know how people manage without the Lord!!

Psalms 73:26 " My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever! "
Psalms 19:14 "May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in Your sight, Oh Lord"
Psalms 28:7 " The Lord is my strength and my shield: my heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song"
and last but certainly not least...
Jeremiah 29:11 " For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord; plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart!"

Glorious Promises to cling to as my Life Preserver!!!