My number one rule, when it comes to the computer....is never take it to bed! I refuse for my bedroom, my refuge to be hindered with ANYTHING! Its the one place I can go and escape from the world....to truly find rest! For my body, my spirit, and yes...even my soul! However....As I climbed underneath my wonderful crisp, cool sheets....made sure the door was shut...even looked ( or peeked I should say!) through my shutters that look directly at Miller's parking spot....to make sure he wouldn't rat me out....I broke my own rule!!! I sit here...typing away and enjoying every minute of it!! I was in blissful solitude and about to bear my soul way too much when all of a sudden...my bedroom door flew open and there stood Miller! To tell me goodnight mind you! I hadn't heard him come in from Dairy Queen...their restaraunt of choice after every basketball game....but there he was and I was guilty! I know he probably wondered why his mother looked so "guilty" when all he was trying to do was be nice! In fact....I'm about to ask Jim if he TOLD him to come in here and tell me goodnight~! No matter....it was very sweet of him to make sure he told me he was home and to tell me goodnight! You see...Miller is a wonderful kid! He has so many good qualities that when he does something even remotely wrong...its hard to get mad at him! I know this sounds like we are spoiling him...but I promise we are NOT!! He is hard on himself...I think that is the difference in him and I'm just now realizing this! He is growing up so fast right before my very eyes that I sometimes feel like I want to bolt the doors shut...make time stop...and put him back in his precious smocked bubble suit!! Anyway, you get my drift!
Now I'm back to typing...Miller is getting ready for bed...we've had a good heart to heart talk about alot of issues...and he's the one telling me to stop.... to stop complaining because I had already told him I'm praying about my attitude, searching my heart....wanting the best for him as well as his friends...and he is so right! I need to stop....If we say we are forgiving...if we say we are praying for another person...if we say we are working on our attitudes...then we need to do it!! Oh....its hard! its real hard for me!! But if we are truly honest, and let our selfish pride get out of the way....and truly let God handle each situation...Oh what peace that should bring! And that can only happen when we are walking with Him! Not just "talking" about Him...but truly, walking intimately with Him....I haven't been...my heart has been decidedly wicked...I've been angry...but Miller has truly shown me what it's like to forgive, move on...and love and respect someone when I thought it wasn't possible! and its not...Without Christ!
Philippians 2:1-4 tells us explicitly how we are to live, act and love even when it doesn't seem right to us! If we don't act like this...how is the world to know that we are any different?
"If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from His love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make My joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and in purpose. Do NOTHING out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but with humility, consider others better than yourselves! Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others!"
Your son sounds like a wonderful young man. It is obvious you love and appreciate him. I hope you have a great weekend. Blessings...Mary
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